This was not what I pictured motherhood to be ... I could never have imagined spending our nights driving and ordering Maccas drive-through at 3am!
Something had to change. I had to find another way to get through the evenings. This was the last night we drove
I was certainly not loving it and felt so sad scrolling through social media jealous of all these super-natural-Mummas seamlessly juggling motherhood.
What was I doing so wrong?
I was in complete survival mode, fueled only by adrenaline and caffeine!
On top of this… I was self-employed and trying to run and manage a business (what maternity leave?!)
I felt like I was failing at life; I was failing her, failing at parenting, things were falling through the cracks in the business.
I was trying so hard to do everything and be everything for everyone.
All I really wanted was to just have more than 2 hours of sleep at a time.
I couldn't go on like this. I was determined to find another way to settle her, to help ease her pain.
I found some research on baby massage and how it could help with wind, colic + constipation, sleep and so much more!
There were no local baby massage instructors in the local area.
And because I don't tend to do things by halves I enrolled to become a baby massage instructor.
I could never have imagined that this decision, made on a whim out of complete desperation would take me to where I am today.
Becoming a baby massage instructor quite literally changed my life, in so many different ways.
For the next couple of weeks I regularly started massaging Billie, and every nappy change we quickly did the "colic sequence".